Wednesday, March 10, 2010

"Praise the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits-who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion." Psalm 103: 2-4

Today has been a really good day, so many things have happened this past week, I want to share with all of you.

The first one is a perspective of life that God has shown me, I call it the "ring of life". I was looking at my ring one day that was on the table, and then saw the ring as my life, the middle of the ring my life... last year, me trying to fulfill that middle with so many things... not understanding that the only one that can fulfill, satisfy, complete that middle of the ring (my life) is God... nothing, no one can do that, but God. Around the ring I have some words engraved... Jesus showed me... around the ring I will put precious stones, pearls, but remember, they are around your life, they are not the center, I am the center, the only one that can fulfill your heart and complete you. Around the ring are gifts that I give around your life, like Bethany (she is a pearl in my ring of life). Jesus is the center of our lives, our kids, husbands/wives/jobs/careers, etc are things that God give to us as gifts to go around our lives, and just because He is so good to us and loves us so much, not because we deserve it.
Wow, my eyes have been so far from the truth, what a hard head! It is taking what I have on my head to understand, to learn every day...

Things to praise God for, many... He is so at work all the time... you know my family is far away, you are my friends, brothers and sisters, you are that extended family that God has put on my path, and lately He has bless me with a momma, and new sisters too. I went to visit my lawyer (I think I have mentioned before in one of my blogs), she is a strong christian lady, a christian warrior, she was very sad to hear the news about my health, but since then she has literally put me under her wings. the girls that work for her are all wonderful, and always call checking on me and giving me words of encouragement. Susan is doing so many things for me during this time, praying, loving, encouraging me, she is a blessing in my life.
Because of the medication I take (I told you this before) I can't work, but God has provided a job at my mamma's office, I am so blessed! getting a job this days it is not easy, thank you Lord for providing this job!

Now, last... Shand's news... finally! I woke up this morning and pray "Lord, please, let the Dr. call me, I am not feeling well lately, I have good days, but also bad days, and headaches are back every day, the medications is really taking control of my life,... please, let me Dr. call me... and give me peace he cares about my case...
Well, after dropping Bethany at school, around 830 the phone rung... Ms. Wilcox? This is Dr. Murad... it amazed me how God answers me right away... the news, he waited to call me because he wanted to discuss my case with other doctors, so he waited until having answers... I did not receive a concrete answer, but in few words what he said is that they believe is not cancer, it is not a brain tumor... they believe is a "Rare Brain Growth" called "L'hermitte Duclos"... He wants to see me again and run another MRI, the team fears for what they call "the mass effect" which basically it is this growth blocking the brain fluid and causing damage... I guess like having a stroke... He also said that surgery is risky on that area and he is afraid about loosing my coordination, motor skills after surgery, but on the other hand we have the "mass effect" because of the area where is located. He said he will talk to me more when he sees me.
I still have to wait for the secretary to call me and give me the time, but I know he has set up the day for March 30th.
That means we have 20 days to pray over this, so humbly I ask you join me in prayer over this, I believe God can do a miracle and that after having that MRI that thing could be gone, if it is God's will. God may have other plans for me, and it is ok with me, I want His will to be done, not mine. I know He has the perfect plan for me.
Love you,