Chemo Round 2, here I go...

"But He said to them, "Why are you so fearful, you of little faith?" Then He got up and rebuked the winds and the sea. And there was a great calm." Matthew 8:26

This verse make me feel better, God so knows my little faith, but I will not be the first human with this problem... the apostles saw miracles done in front of them, they walked side to side with the Messiah and even though in times of trouble their faith was shaken... many prophets at moments lost faith too and even to the point of hiding in caves and wanting to die (thank you Rhonda) it is our human nature, we are weak and here comes the importance of keeping communion with God, his word, and staying close to Him. If is not because through his word I have a constant reminder that He is the bless controller, that time is in His hands and happenings are under His control... I am telling you I will be a complete mess, no faith, no hope, nothing... In my human nature I tend to become depress, and look at the negative side of things, look at the bad and not the good... God has bless me in huge ways, my treasure is not material, but it is spiritual. God is blessing me with wonderful brothers and sisters in Christ, with spiritual sisters that are providing a home for me, a cancer treatment that is incredible expensive, but God made it possible for me. I have a plate of food on my table by his grace, a daughter that is full of energy, but loves me and is healthy and loves God... what else can I ask for?
The days of my life are counted by Him. He already knows when will be my time to go home with him, and that gives me so much peace, I don't have to worry about my health or what I need to say to doctors and what doctors to have etc... My Jesus is in control for me and He has it all planned... If more life to bring glory to His name and guide my little one in his path... if not more life, then Bethany is His, He will make sure she is ok, He will watch over her, and my family. I will be out of pain, no more tears no more sorrows, I will be next to my savior.
What is next? Wednesday morning I am suppose to be admitted at Sacred Heart to receive this Chemo that is new for me ... is called Cytoxin, and I have to stay over night, then on Friday I have to receive this shot called Neulasta to help my bone marrow create more cells, since this drug is known to wipe the white blood cells, meaning I will have no body defenses for a little bit.
Then the following week, on Tuesday another chemo, and the following tuesday from then another chemo... that will be the end of chemo round 2
What? How many rounds are there? I have 6 cycles total... so my guess is that if everything goes well and as scheduled, then I will be done with chemo sometime in November or December.
seems a long way for me, but I bet for God is just a blink of an eye, He is with me and that brings peace in my heart, His peace that surpasses all understanding. He carries me in His arms when I cannot walk no more, what a wonderful God we have, his mercy and love for us is never ending.
Prayers I need is for this new Chemo that I will receive on Wednesday
For Bethany that needs and misses mom, but I am not with her, but on weekends
For my mom that may come to visit me for a few weeks, but that she can get her visa
For my friend Joy, her sister was fighting with cancer (Sheila) and she passed away recently. Joy is very depress, please keep her in prayer.
Love you bunches!