"God... is the blessed controller of all things, the king over all kings and the master of all masters" 1st timothy 6:15
It is so true that "church" is not a building, we are the church... we all make a unique contribution that forms a body, we are part of the body of Christ. We have been designed in a magnificent way, with our virtues and failures... we are unique.
Many times we look so hard for fulfillment in another human, what a big mistake and as my big brother Rob said... it is unfair to expect another human to fill the emptiness in our heart, Jesus is the only one that can occupy that empty space in our hearts, that thirst, that longing.
Deep inside us we are all children. girls we dream about a prince that will come, take our heart and tell us he will love us forever, that will be there for us and watch over us forever (as the song goes) as well... however the only one that can watch over us and love us unconditionally forever is God.
Pain and suffering... although many things I am going through (and I've been)are difficult and I am making it only with God's strength, I have come to the realization that not until now I can share and understand pain and suffering in others. For a long time I shared sympathy for others going through difficulties and pain, but now I can share and understand them (there is a difference)... I asked myself many times God why are you allowing this happening to me?... now I say "thank you Lord for teaching me", sometimes the learning process can be painful... specially if you are a perfectionist and hard headed like me (lol)
Tomorrow will be the last chemo of cycle please pray for healing.
Love you all!
Monday, June 27, 2011
Thursday, June 9, 2011
Chemo round 3, here I come...
"My mouth is full of praise and honor to you all day long" Psalm 71:8
Sometimes life can play tricks on us, one day we have everything and next one we lose all. However, there is peace in those things, knowing that God is in control and either He is protecting us from something or trying to teach us... Like the song says "You give and take away, my heart will chose to say Lord blessed be your name".
When things go wrong I just have to think God is in control, He loves me, He wants the best for me, and my anxiety and troubled heart becomes at peace.
Chemo round 3 starts on Tuesday, this time I am better prepared for the side effects. I am having trouble with the side effects of radiation even though was long time ago, but now they are popping out.
the doc says they may go away or they may stay forever... I pray they will go away, but if not is good with me, the Lord is my strength, my provider, I will be just fine.
Always praise his glorious name!
Sometimes life can play tricks on us, one day we have everything and next one we lose all. However, there is peace in those things, knowing that God is in control and either He is protecting us from something or trying to teach us... Like the song says "You give and take away, my heart will chose to say Lord blessed be your name".
When things go wrong I just have to think God is in control, He loves me, He wants the best for me, and my anxiety and troubled heart becomes at peace.
Chemo round 3 starts on Tuesday, this time I am better prepared for the side effects. I am having trouble with the side effects of radiation even though was long time ago, but now they are popping out.
the doc says they may go away or they may stay forever... I pray they will go away, but if not is good with me, the Lord is my strength, my provider, I will be just fine.
Always praise his glorious name!
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Cycle 2 done!
"God ...is the blessed controller of all things, the king over all kings and the master of all masters"
Isn't this verse wonderful. I am so thankful that I do not have the last word, but He does. When things don't go my way or go wrong (or at least I think they are wrong) I get mad, anxious sometimes and I fight to get things the way I think they should be, I became stress and anxious... I am learning that it is a waist on my health and mind. God is in control always, from the small to big stuff, so why to stress out or be anxious about things? God will open or close the door either way, whatever He knows is good for me.
I just finished cycle 2 of chemo, I am excited about it, 2 weeks of rest and cycle 3 waiting for me. I am experiencing a lot of the radiation side effects, but I am praying they will go away as it happened in the past.
My mom's visit to the States is still unknown. She has applied for her u.s. visa, but the consul did not grant her the visa, he wants more records and information from the times visited the states. But, God is the bless controller, if is his will for my mom to come and visit me, there will be no consul, no officer that will be in between, the visa will be granted either way, if is His will.
Please keep me and my mom in prayer, I feel in the middle of a battlefield (still have 4 more cycles to go), but the peace that I have knowing my father is in control and always want the best for me... what an almighty God we serve
Bless you all, love
Sofia
Isn't this verse wonderful. I am so thankful that I do not have the last word, but He does. When things don't go my way or go wrong (or at least I think they are wrong) I get mad, anxious sometimes and I fight to get things the way I think they should be, I became stress and anxious... I am learning that it is a waist on my health and mind. God is in control always, from the small to big stuff, so why to stress out or be anxious about things? God will open or close the door either way, whatever He knows is good for me.
I just finished cycle 2 of chemo, I am excited about it, 2 weeks of rest and cycle 3 waiting for me. I am experiencing a lot of the radiation side effects, but I am praying they will go away as it happened in the past.
My mom's visit to the States is still unknown. She has applied for her u.s. visa, but the consul did not grant her the visa, he wants more records and information from the times visited the states. But, God is the bless controller, if is his will for my mom to come and visit me, there will be no consul, no officer that will be in between, the visa will be granted either way, if is His will.
Please keep me and my mom in prayer, I feel in the middle of a battlefield (still have 4 more cycles to go), but the peace that I have knowing my father is in control and always want the best for me... what an almighty God we serve
Bless you all, love
Sofia
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