Thursday, April 8, 2010

"I will sing to the Lord all my life; I will sing praise to my God as long as I live. May my meditation be pleasing to him, as I rejoice in the Lord." Psalm 104:33

A friend wrote "thank you God for more time", very simple, very real. Sometimes we take our lives for granted without realizing every day is a gift, every time we breath, every time we look around and are able to see the beautiful creation God made for us to enjoy, every time someone smiles and we can smile back, every time we can hug our kids and tell them we love them... every day, every moment is a gift from God.

I've been staying with my best friend Julia for almost 2 weeks now (thank you Julie for your love, your care and your patience with me!). I have enjoyed her friendship, her kids, beautiful walks around the bay, and nature... we can find healing of the soul and body by spending time with good friends, enjoying the outdoors, rejoicing with the Lord's creation and casual conversations with Him.

I took my Bethany for a picnic day over the pier, and a nature walk, then for a walk over the bay; the water was very cold, but she did not care, she went into the water to catch hermit crabs (she is not afraid of them, even the big ones!) and I had so much fun by watching her, seeing her so happy.

I am coming back home this weekend, and next week back to the swing of life. Taking care of Bethany, going back to work, taking care of my lovely home that our good Lord provided for me. Am I 100%? nope; however I am doing better, less headaches, and finally off the steroids (yeah!) no more shaking of hands and legs, no more acne, no more popeye's face, my vision is much better now, and no weird behavior and sleepless nights; but, there are other things that I guess I have to learn to live with, and be happy, I am still up and running, and taking care of my Bethany. I've been so afraid about the future..."what if".. "what if"... and I have come to the realization I can't live like that, I have to live the present, I am good today, I can see, walk and move my arms, praise God for it! live without fear and enjoy the present time, the "now" and forget about being worry about the future, God will take care of my future..." He knows all the days ordained for me", He is the one that upholds my health and my life as he does for all of us sick or healthy, when the day comes to go home, or get really sick, then the day will just come and will be the time to deal with it, not now.

I have to go back to Shands in 3 weeks, another MRI and Dr. appointment, please keep praying with me that the mass keeps shrinking or at least is not growing more.

I'll keep you updated with the "happenings"...

=) Sofia