Still learning to have Faith

"Into Your hand I commit my spirit" Psalm 31:5
"I will both lie down in peace, and sleep; For you alone. O Lord, make me dwell in safety". Psalm 4:8
Sometimes it's hard to trust in God, it is easy to say, but when we go through tests in life is when we realized (I) my faith is as little or less than little than a mustard seed. I am so glad God loves me either way, no matter how small my faith goes sometimes.
As a parent I believe one of the most difficult things to do is to let go of your child, to understand that you have no power, that they are a creation of God and you are just a caretaker for the time being that God wants you to be... you never stop worrying and thinking of them (trying to have control over their lives), but wrong... God is the one in control, God is the one that says rest and be in peace cause I am God... I created your child, he/she is mine, and I love her more than you do, I will have my angels around her watching over her and I know the plans for her life.
I went a little bit crazy about my little one (confession) and somehow desperate trying to be the mom ... but God is telling me again... Don't you trust me? and I realize how weak my faith is. I still have so much to learn and to have faith in him.
As a mother I thank God I am the one going through this and not her, as a parent I believe we will carry any pain, sorrow, struggle for them, we don't wanna see them suffer ever... when I had Bethany I understood a little bit better the Love God has for us that he gave his only son to save us, and that Jesus die and carry all the shame and sin for us so that we do not die, what an amazing God we have.
Here are some pics so you get an idea about the place I am staying, The American Cancer Society Lodge, free for people receiving treatment, 50 rooms, 6 kitchen station areas, 50 refrigerator areas and 50 basket areas for freezer, etc, even the laundry soap and laundry mat is free! what a blessing for all of us...
Oh, and as a good friend said to me... my hair has gone for the holidays... so the American Cancer Society has donated a wig for me... let me know what you think about my new hair =)
God's peace and joy be all over you,